Well this is my first attempt of writing a blog. I believe that is more for me than for anyone else, giving me an outlet for my thoughts. I believe that my thoughts will not be of much interest to anyone in particular but I thought that this might be a good venue for me to get some things out of my head and out in the "atmosphere" so to speak.
First lets start with a little bit about me. I am 38 years old, I am very well educated with both a bachelors degree and an MBA. I am a gay male; but I do not let that define me in the least. I am republican, am sure that I lost a bunch of people there, and a Christian. I have been partnered to the same man for over 10 years. As in most relationships we have had our ups and downs; but I am truly in love with him. Okay that is the boring stuff out of the way.
I am not sure what I am looking to get out of this but I am going to give it a try. Holding all of your thoughts in your head can give you a headache. I found that I am not sleeping like I should and have visited the Dr for somethign to help she thinks that I am caring to many things around with me that I have not gotten processed out of my brain and suggested journaling or something like it to help process. So this is how all of this has gotten born. I am not a writer, nor is my english or grammar great. My education is in accounting and business so numbers are my game not the written word so please look past that. To make matters worse I am from Texas so I have that west Texas draw, I say things like y'all and fixin'.
I am chief accountant for large company based in Lubbock, Texas so I carry a lot of things on my mind all the time. I work 24/7 and would more if there was more time. I have a difficult time delegating to people because I have trust issues. I do not trust people to do things like I would do them so I choose to do them myself. Work is a big reason that I cannot turn my brain off and go to sleep I am constantly thinking about what I should be doing or should have done. Some mornings I will wake up at 2:00AM or 3:00AM and finally just get and go into the office and work until 5:00 or 6:00 and then the process starts over. If I do not find some outlet for my sanity I may lose it all together.
As far as me being gay, like I said before I do not let that define me. I my immediate family knows that I am gay but I keep that part of my life separate from work. I do not hang out with my superiors or employees because I do not think that it is good business. Some of my closest friends do not know that I am gay because I beleive that it is not any of their business. As a business man I identify with being Republican, I guess I am the Log Cabin Republican type. I do not associate with a lot of gay causes I do not believe that I should be special treatment because I am gay much like I do not think that people should be get special treatment because of the color their skin. I do not march around at parades. I will not apologize for those things that is just who I am. I have always heard that you should not discuss religon or politics; but I am happy to discuss both. The problem I have is when people do not allow you to have your own opinion unless it is theirs. I also identify as Christian, I believe in Jesus Christ as our lord and savior. I have been baptized in the Christian church and I and VERY comfortable in my Christian faith. That being said I have not been to Church in several years. I would recommend people read "So You Don't Want to Go to Church Anymore" it will make you think about organized religion.
So that is a little bit about me I can't tell you where this blog might end up; but maybe it will help me and maybe someone will be entertained by it. I might or might not get better at it so please be patient.
